Tough week!!!

Unfortunately I have to start with bad news. My dear grandmother died yesterday, Sept 29, 2008. As I'm writing I still can't believe it is true. It's so unexpected and just hard to accept. Hard to be so far from my family and my dad. I wish I could be with them and my grandmother when she was in the hospital! It's so hard to write about it! I love my grandma!!! It is so hard to lose the people you love!!!

I'm so happy I have less than 6 months of school left before I graduate!!! The only thing is I haven' t found a place I want to work at. I still work at the hospital, but last time I got so tired and felt like crap after a night shift full of shit and poor sick people!!! I don't know what to do!!! I feel sorry for those people and I do want to help, but that day my emotions just took over me. I wanted to run from that place as far as I could and never to come back. I decided to quit that job that day, Sept. 28th. However, I had to return to the hospital for my clinicals next day, which was very tough. And then that day after clinical, i found out about my dear grandmother.
Of course, I couldn't go today...that's just too much....

My summer 2008

So here is almost the end of this Rainy summer!
I did find a job at the hospital as I wished in my last posting. I work at the General as a Health Care Aid. Oh, I went though a lot feelings of emotions, denial, doubts, anger, and satisfaction. It was very tough in the beginning with heavy duties and hours AND with nurses who ignored me at first, but after everybody needed help, they became nicer. Also, the working conditions of nurses scared me of my future. It's 12 hours of hard physical and mental work on the top of the critical patients with a lot of treatments and medications. Good things were that I have learned a lot and I was not afraid to ask questions. I also feel more comfortable at the hospital!!! And doing basic care is now very easy and quick!!! So I should not have problems this year when I will have 3-4 patients. We'll see...I'm looking forward to this LAST year!!! I want to see other floors and maybe I'll find a perfect place for work and learning.
I also continued to work at my Lenscrafters. This job was my little vacation form hospital. I loved that I could dress up here and put on my make up and enjoy my work with healthy people.
So June and July were working months without much of fun of summer. However, we managed to drive to Syracuse to shop for a weekend, but August seems to be the best FUN month with a big friend's wedding, a trip to Mont-Tremblant, weekly bbqs and fishing!

On the search....

I'm not very good for blogging regularly, but that's because I don't have much time right now. Lot's of papers due!!!
I have started sending out my resumes to hospitals to find a student job for the summer. I also have a clinical in May on the psyciatric floor. That's another thing i'm looking forward too.Who knows may be I'll like it!!!! I'm still working at lenscrafters once a week. It's fun job, but very low paid!!!
Cheers....