Sweet patients!

WOw...I got up an hour ago after my post-night sift morning snooze. It's carzy outside, snowstorm after warm days. I have one more night to go.
This night shift was actually pretty good. My one room with 4 gentlemen whom I had 2 days. They're all so cute and all were seeking my attention. Once I come in in the room, everybody needs something :), but most of the time it was to talk. They are all nice guys with different problems, but with so much appreciation for the care I was providing for them. That's a great reward of bedside nursing. Patients appreciate your hard work. One of those guys came in because he had fainted 4 times in one day at home and doctors were thinking he has a heart block, maybe even mechanical like a tumor. Echo results were good, Angio showed healthy arteries; so nobody knows the cause. Anyway, he is very chatty and everytime I come in, he'd tell me stories. The other day I had a complex admission in the same room, so I was just running all day. He saw me running in and out of the room all day long. So he'd tell me "We keep u busy here in this room". At the end of the day he was so sweet; he told me, "You need a glass of wine or two and if your husband will mind tell him to come and see me". Today he's going home and before I left he said,"He'll drink a glass of wine for me at home". It was sooo sweet!!!

Getting more confident and independent as RN!

I'm back from my last night shift! I have 4 more days off...YEY!!! My day shifts were kind of busy and my night shifts were very nice with patients that I know and I did learned and reviewed how to deal with temp pacemakers since I had a pt with one. I was actually proud of myself because I felt so independent and felt more sure about all the things I had to deal with such as hanging IV drugs and trouble shooting those IV lines, drawing blood from PICC, and PICC dressings. We are also currently going through recertification of cardiology and safety of handling biohazardous materials. I'm kind of at the point where I have to start working on my own, I have to apply for a position...but I'm unsure if i want to stay there or not. Today is 5 months since I started. I was thinking to start part time and keep looking for a job. We'll see. However, I can say that I feel that I'll be alright to be independent. I feel pretty confident by now. I already make my own decisions. I and Gev going on my work's christmas party on Sat; it's a big one for the whole HI. I think it'll be exciting and we'll get to meet a lot of people!
On a side from my work....I'm an aunty again...K and S's baby girl was born today at 0025!!! We saw her today!!! She is a copy of my husband :) and my father in law. It's so interesting!!! We're all very excited!!!

"I'm awake, energized, and alive!"

I feel so much better...And I just came from work, unusual..huh?! I actually had a good day today, still busy, but steady! I also just watched a visualization from The Secret and that heading is from there!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=phL0RLKL8bc&feature=channel I loved that short video, it just brings the mood up and gives you such a positive feeling! I have to work 2 more nights and I'm ok with that! I made a plan to go for a walk with my hubby tomorrow, just dress warm and enjoy that beautiful crispy winter air. I find right now we are so disconnected from nature because of the winter...I feel drained and we don't sleep well lately! So we'll get some energy tomorrow from our mother nature beauty! As for work, I had good experience and I learned more today. I will continue to learn and get better and look for more opportunities! I have the potential and I'll soon find my dream job!!! :) Oh, I feel so good now! I gotta stay on that positive truck!

Still on a search for a dream job

I still work on Cardiology/sx floor. I'm getting better and better and I learn a lot everyday. Of course the business of the place doesn't ease up...but some days are better than others. I had my days off and tomorrow I start my rotation. Meanwhile I keep searching for other jobs and sending out resumes, but nothing promising yet. I feel so down today...I don't even know why. Everything is not the way I want it...or maybe it's better...who knows...THE GOD. He is the one who is giving us all the challenges and joys at the right times. As Gev says anything that happens in our lives is for better. I agree. I also have this crazy headache or migraine and I just hope it goes away by the morning.

Ooooh Evangeline!!!

Why do I always get inspired by watching a movie or, this time, cartoon "The Princess and the Frog"? (You'd have to watch the cartoon to really get this post!) I don't know...but I guess it allows you to dream and just get outside of the real world! I wanted to say that working hard is been my way through pretty much everything in my life starting in grade 1 when I was struggling with math and Russian class and my mom would spend a lot of time getting through homework with me. I guess I learned it then that you have to work hard to get anything. Up to grade 6 my marks were steady, not good. Then I remember that grade 6 when we moved to Novorossyisk and it was first Russian test and I was the only one who got the best grade 5! And the teacher said " I'm so proud that our new girl in the class got the highest mark...and I had no idea that she was talking to me until she said my name. I was shocked! However, it was a magical moment cause since then I was a student with high marks in almost all the subjects. I still had to work hard and do my homework. I always knew I wanted to go to university and achieve something in my life to help first, my parents, who also worked and still working soooo hard. Unfortunately in our country working hard is not enough to make a normal living. So I told my self I'll be working hard to get through obstacles, but I'll get there!!! Then I moved to Canada to my hubby, but still knew we had to work hard here to get somewhere...work, education. We did it! Now I'm working at my job. I'm sort of satisfied, but I still feel that I'm going through another obstacle of hard physical and emotional time! It's not easy to force yourself into the high paced environment of hospital where you have responsibility of peoples' lives and you have piles of work and millions of information and phone numbers, tests, charting, meds...you have to prioritize...you have to be on time...you have to go on break...but wheeeeeen???? It gets so overwhelming...on 31st I was so busy all day and I came in to hang my last med to my patient...he told me "Sit down...sit down now...at least for a minute and relax!" I listened to him...ha gave me a cookie and said just eat it and sit back your medication will not run anywhere. I was soooo grateful to him for forcing me to sit...I enjoyed that 5 minute conversation and I felt like my patient was taking care of his nurse for once! It was so nice...I Thank HIM and I hope he'll recover soon from his sternal wound infection.
Anyway, back to my hard work :). After watching this magical cartoon, I got re energized for working even harder to achieve me next goal: My Dream Job, which I still have to discover by trying different options, but meanwhile I have to coninue on my current job and learn as much as I can and meet people, and looking out for other options. I'm sure my current experience will halp me in the future! And as everything I worked for in my life, it'll pay off! All my little struggles which never stopped me from going on, they all paid off!!! And I'll continue! I still have to help my parents! It's one of my main goals!!! I want to help them to fix our house in Russia, to see them going on vacation once and just enjoying their life and not constantly thinking on hoe to earn more money to pay for everything and save a bit! I know everything will be great!!! Especially if I ask Evangeline, "Please, please, please!" :) We all need a little bit of magic to get through! He he!