Tough week!!!

Unfortunately I have to start with bad news. My dear grandmother died yesterday, Sept 29, 2008. As I'm writing I still can't believe it is true. It's so unexpected and just hard to accept. Hard to be so far from my family and my dad. I wish I could be with them and my grandmother when she was in the hospital! It's so hard to write about it! I love my grandma!!! It is so hard to lose the people you love!!!

I'm so happy I have less than 6 months of school left before I graduate!!! The only thing is I haven' t found a place I want to work at. I still work at the hospital, but last time I got so tired and felt like crap after a night shift full of shit and poor sick people!!! I don't know what to do!!! I feel sorry for those people and I do want to help, but that day my emotions just took over me. I wanted to run from that place as far as I could and never to come back. I decided to quit that job that day, Sept. 28th. However, I had to return to the hospital for my clinicals next day, which was very tough. And then that day after clinical, i found out about my dear grandmother.
Of course, I couldn't go today...that's just too much....